You should start redecorating a room or two at your house. Making it "yours'. It'll be a good project to occupy your time and your mind on a healthy project of taking ownership of your home as though she isn't coming back. Instead of sulking over her...she'll hear about you doing this and that to "HER" home and wonder what's got into you....maybe. Either way, it's healthy for you to begin transitioning your space into "your" space should this not turn out as you wish.
The internet is 90% complaining and entitlement and I hate it because I deserve better!
