This need not be the end.

[Fogg]

Sorry Barry,I know your struggling. I've had very similar feelings the last few days/weeks. It's not ok, everything isn't fine. It's like you can't believe this is really happening and you only keep strong at times hopeing things will work themselves out but then reality sets in and your just in complete disbelief. Like your in this nightmare that won't end. It's painful, the most painful thing we may ever experience. You don't have to switch it off, it will take time to heal from this, time you have to give yourself. The tiredness is something I've also experienced alot of the last week. Physically, mentally, emotionally. It's a new emotion for me also. It's been about 12 weeks for me as well so know this may just be part of the process we go through. I wish I could say something to help. Speaking to her won't help, I know that much now.

Try and exercise again, the boost you get will help some. It's important to eat and sleep also. Keep to the basics and take everything in small steps.