It's a nightmare. Wake me up.

[RAI]

Can I put a silver lining on all of this? You are not in the house with your W right now. This will make the detachment process easier. It will also facilitate your working on yourself. I can already see that you are making excellent use of your time reading the suggested books.
I am still sleeping in the same bedroom as my W. I see her every move. I can only read books in my office at work. It has made things very difficult for me.

So with 46 yrs I have to discover my own life? That hurts. This process is painful and I hope it's worth the effort.

ko, consider yourself lucky. Some people go through their whole life and never discover themselves or what they are made of. You are being given a chance. There is no growth without pain. I know the process is painful - I feel it every day - but what sustains me is that I KNOW it is worth it.

RAI