Zelda, I'm so sorry. Hugs. Maybe it's a case of a few steps forward, one back. I don't know, I've never pieced, but it seems to me it could be.

Why I'm gone for two days for work and he doesn't miss me, but mentions arguing with me in his head.
HOw do you know he doesn't miss you? Is this mind reading or did he say it?

I feel far from loved.
Why do you think that is? Is he meeting your ENs? Maybe he's missing out on your LL. Does he know? Have you told him very specifically what you need?

What does your MC say about all of it?

Me 28 / H 28
M 1 / T 2.5
BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more"
Still living together, separate rooms.