I guess I am still angry at being lied to and being manipulated as something that is not true. My kids are in that photo and I don't like my kids being shown off either representing something that I didn't agree to in the first place. We are not that happy family, my kids are very upset and I am a LBS trying to manage all of this. My WAW who looks like such a sweet person in the photo is not that person. It's like she is an imposter in that photo. It's a hypocracy, a fallacy.
If people only knew. I feel like I have been used in a cruel charade and yes it hurts me very much. That was my life and now it's not. Sometimes, the chuch uses this photo and blows it up and use it as a banner so everyone see's it who drives down the very busy street.
So, yes, in honesty I guess I am still angry. I need to process that more. This Friday and the rest of next week, I will work out at the gym and try to get some of this anger out of my system. When does the anger ever go away?
I have to get this anger out. It is not a healty place to live and it poisons everything. However, I am still sticking to my boundries of no manipulation of me.
