They are very helpful. My WAW is very involved in the church infrastructure, thus the email to her. I don't have a good relationship with the pastor, I never have. It's just the way it's always been. Plus if I had just asked the chuch to do it, it would have gotten back to her in a second. The end reaction would have been the same.
Yes, I could have said it in a better way and explained my reasoning. I will keep that in mind if a similar situation comes up again. However, It's just another example of me as the bad guy and my WAW is the good guy or at least thatis how it feels. I am so tired of feeling manipulated and feeling bad about myself and my emotions.
My emotions are valid and I have always been a person of character who put my family first. It just hurts when everyone goes along with my WAW and I feel put into a corner. I am working with my IC as to why I feel this way - and how I control my emotions - no one else. I have allowed people (WAW) to manipulate me and one my boundries is no more manipulation.
I will work on softening my approach. That will be helpful for all concerned, especially ME! No wonder people see me as the "bad guy", I just don't have good social skills. I can see that better now. I am an introvert and my WAW is an extrovert. Dealing with people makes me feel very tired, while my WAW feels exhilirated dealing with people. Polar opposites, which for a long time felt like I was with the right person who could smooth my rough edges.
Should I send aother email to the pastor and WAW explaining why I requested this or just let it lay? My gut tells me to just let it lay.
