Yesterday I picked up S and took him to baseball practice. He had a really bad attitude during the game the night before, we have about a 30 minute drive (Soon to be done with that and THIS guy can not wait) so I use that time to talk to him about things, usually fun stuff but every now and then ya have to be a Father. He was frustrated at where he was playing and where in the line up he was hitting as he has gone 4-4 in 2 games. I explained to him some advice I learned somewhere. Control what you can .. yourself. The rest will take care of it. I explained he needs to throw hard (he often just lobs) run hard (more hustle) and swing hard. he keeps that up and the coaches will take notice. Dude played like a kid possessed and got some atta boys from the other coaches ... I am not sure but I think Michelle could twist DB into a Parenting DB book easily and make a mint. (Just send your pal Cali a Christmas card and I will help...lol)
So W arrives at practice, her neck is back to hurting again, she looks horrible, aged 10 years. I was just going to leave for my RCIA class and she starts in on me a bit .. I stayed calm, she was upset I only told the coaches S would be leaving early and did not tell S and now he would be upset with her, its all her fault .. bla bla. I told her that I am not to blame got her R with S, thats between the two of them. I went and told S goodbye and did give him a heads up about leaving ealry, told him how proud of him I was with his play that night.
On the way to RCIA W TM me, an actual apology, saying the pain has her cranky and she was sorry .. and that today marked 2 years BIL3 has been incarcerated. I replied a bit later with a simple "I'm really sorry, I know it has not been easy on you" and left it at that.
RCIA class ... felt good to be there as I missed the last week. We shared our stories, why we were there, it was funny.. I DJ in front of about 200 people every week, but speaking about personal things to 30 people is much harder. I was vague but did share some of my life. As I listened I seen people who were there for various reasons, then this girl who sits a table away from me gets up. She was bawling her eyes out, but pulled enough strenght to share she lost her Husband in May, was trying to figure out how to kill herself just to be with him, questioned God and why He took him, and slowly started to get out of the house, came to RCIA ... was a moving story and not many dry eyes were in attendance. Leaving I shook my head... thinking I had it bad, the pain that poor woman was feeling I could relate to but only a fraction. Sometimes as bad as things get its an eye opener to realize there are people FAR worse off, ones who would love a chance to have the opportunities I have ... very humbling experience.
W TM this morning, in pain. I looked at the text, not reading into it but she still comes to me when in need. That is hard to be mean and turn my back on her, if anything I have been the rock in all this. She questioned why God was doing this to her, Ihave been very careful not to preach ... I am the last person justified to do so .. I simply validated her, told her I did not have that answer, that is between her and God. I refrained from fixing ... let her talk a bit and she said she needed a travel bag to carry her work items. She was looking online, I told her I had the Amazon Prime and she could get free 2 day shipping .... she actually added her card on the account and purchased what she wanted ... thanked me later. I felt that was a neighborly thing to do, no expectations .. I just felt good about it.
So ... today is a new day, PMA is high, taking S to the store to get our supplies for the Leprechaun trap we need to build Sunday .... Softball tonight against our friendly rival and going out with them after, should be fun.
