Just journaling a bit: I've seen H the past two days, parent meetings at the girls' schools. We've talked and texted about kid calendar and the house (now the air on the other side of the house seems not to be working). I invited him to have Easter dinner with us; he accepted. And my gut reaction to all this (in case anyone is asking smile ) is what a good X he's going to be.

Our end-of-S talk is Monday, and I've been thinking about what I'd like to do going forward. The truth is, I don't want to do anything different at all. I'm just now feeling like I'm taking my life back, getting the house the way I want it, finding my groove with the girls again, getting more active at D12's school, getting a social life of my own. H is taking care of the house and cars and finances. I guess that last sentence sort of negates the getting my life back statement earlier, I'm not really being independent right now. But I'd like to keep this arrangement another six months or so and then re-evaluate. I have no idea what H thinks, if he's leaning towards filing or not.

Tonight I'm going to a blues festival, I don't usually go out on weeknights, but I have to say I'm looking forward to this.



"Don't look back, you aren't going that way"