[susana4]

On a completely different topic, I did get a chance to practice some small 180s this morning.

H and I normally walk to work together, or get the train when it's late but sometimes in the past I think he was a bit resentful when we had to get the train because of the cost (because he walks faster than me, so he could still get there in time by walking even if we left late). Tuesday and today we were late. Tuesday he very tentatively said "it's late, we need to get the train... would it be alright with you if I walked in and you get the train? I don't have enough money for the train." He looked scared. In the past I would have been upset with not getting to walk in together and gotten angry or sad but this time I just cheerfully said "that's fine!" This morning again he said "I think I will walk in, is that ok?" But this time he didn't seem scared, he looked a bit sad/disappointed.

Another 180 was that he carried my laptop in for me, but forgot to bring it to me and then delayed a lot which caused me to be delayed in getting down to work. In the past I would have gotten very annoyed and pitched a fit, but this time I kept my emotions in check, and just said "thanks for carrying it in to the office for me, I appreciate it". (which was another 180 because in the past I never thanked him...god I was kind of a b!tch!).

And you know what? I feel better for it! My M is over but I do believe DB has made me a better person and I am so thankful for it, and this site, and everyone on it. You guys rock!!