Part 16 - edz, just edz

[Sotto]

"if w doesn't love me well game over really sadly"

Edz, I'm so sorry you heard all of the above. I actually think there is some good news in there for you in that W can see changes, feels you get along etc. However, clearly she's still somewhat conflicted.

I think this is definitely a time to 'believe nothing that she says' - because we know that WAS's can be all over the place with things - thinking one way one day and another way the next day. If you 'believed' everything they say, you would go up in a puff of smoke.

The other important thing to remember, lovely Edz, is that the game isn't over until you decide it is. Until you get to the point where you decide your future life will no longer be with W and you move on. It doesn't sound to me that you are at this point, and this is another bend in the road, a set-back from which you can move forwards. Remember, time and patience..

Edz, I still think your focus is very much on your W and I would love to see it more on Edz. The thing is, staying so focused on your W causes you pain, and doesn't make any positive difference to your sitch either - it just hurts you. I'm struggling with the same thing TBH, and still think about H way more than is ideal.

I would love to see Edz fulfilling some personal dreams and doing some things he would love to do - not 'going back in his cupboard' as you say above. I know you have struggled with the GAL aspect, and it can be hard I agree - but it is something that helps shift focus away from the sitch, which does help.

So, my advice is - no major moves - don't undo positive progress. Do, however try and shift focus away from W, onto yourself and plan some things. DBing for you isn't 'game over' - but you are not there yet either my friend. Hang on in there, and enjoy what Edz' life has to offer in the meantime. (((Edz)))