Hi Brook, bea, Cali, 2B, Matt, and FOOLISH! Thanks so much for checking in. It felt really good to hear from you guys. Sometimes when I just get so lonely, it is so nice to see that someone posts to you. And to get shout outs from all of you was a nice feeling.
Another long day... cried a lot, like a stupid little baby. However, I had a late appoint tonight with my new ic. I felt so differently on my drive home than I did on my drive there, in which I cried most of the way there. (Maybe I'm making up for lost time... I never cried as a kid... never- parent's divorce, funerals, nothing could make me cry. I was saving up, I think.)
Anyway... he was great. And he kept the focus on me. I think it's going to be really good. I had felt for the first time in awhile, a sort of reestablishment of strength. A little bit of finding some grounding. (And, I'm remembering those thoughts, AJ!)
I am looking forward to it. I think this will be really good for me.
