I even think I do not have much a choice here. I started the big D already. On Monday H and I had our first court appearance in front of the judge. Amazing as it is, the judge decided he would not decide or rule anything that day, including parental rights and responsibilities during course of divorce. The judge said we need time and need to talk. He asked us to talk a lot and decide what we want first. Wow!!!!
I also called Michele's office in Boulder and spoke w/Virginia - she said that it sounds like we need some help and that we are stock right now. Maybe it's not the best scenario right now, but we need to start some where.
This is also my last card. I feel that if after this things do not go to a direction of recommitting to work on our marriage at least, that I will let it go for good.
But, as Michele's books says, at least I tried it all I could and will be OK to move on.
Hi RD, I may sound very upbeat but there are moments, or even days that I feel a lot of pain. In the same time, I feel that it has no sense to let myself fall because I won't be attractive that way.
I feel that the LBS needs to find a balance in the whole craziness and try to be the best they can, at least in front of the WAS. I refuse to let my H to see me like I am grieving. I feel I need to be strong now. Then later I cry on my pillow.
