I think I felt incredulity, looking back. That this person could act like this. But here is what I think. We are part of their DNA. There is no separation in their minds from us (Weird I know) and so they have never wholly left us. I am not sure if this is true for all MLCers but it seems true of some.
I have always felt this ... never really thought of it nor put the words you just did here but I completely feel this is true, along the way they make sure that we are still where they put us .. but I think there is alot to this.
