Good luck today. It's nice to work from her once in a while, but when you do it full time, you don't have that interaction w/your co-workers and people in general. I hope you get the position and it will not only provide more $$$ but also help w/your self esteem and give you something else to think about.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.