Part 16 - edz, just edz

[edz]

Thanks V

Mostly I am (well I'm no GAL king, never be able to keep up with you you know ).

I suppose the main issue is what I feel I'm missing is a close relationship and I feel that I cant go in any direction there except wait.

In all aspects otherwise Im quite sorted now, we still have our joint account but thats for reasons I cant change realistically - yet - those reasons will change in the next month or so and it will very much depend if w and I get any closer if it remains or not.

Other than that and the fact that, no, GAL activities for activities sake arent something Im very good at (never have been right back to teens - Im trying though, signing up for the new bginners yoga in april) I'm mostly settled and independantly organised right now.

Heads clear, health is coming on, weight is going down, BFT is, well, BFT.

Honestly dont think w knows what w wants, one minute she's in tears wanting to talk and be with me, offering me food from her plate (she offered me food again at brunch the other morning) or feeding me as if we're together - the next she wants to be on her own and radio silence. She's quiet then at 10-11pm starts to text me on light, fun stuff (I try not to let these run on now).

All I can do is give her the space to do that until she decides which of the two options to take to.

What will be will be or I'll decide to move on, meanwhile I'll just relax and get on