I didn't win at poker I think yesterday was the biggest day since A was exposed really as it was the next step coming along. I dealt with it really badly but it did show me that I CANNOT allow that to happen again. W will be moving, house will be sold, but I still have plenty of time to work on things.
Rest of the week: I had to turn work down yesterday because I was a mess. I will have a day or two off. I might visit my sister today, go to the gym, I'm at a language group this evening. I'm also picking up/dropping off kids for school for the rest if the week. Hopefully I will take them for tea tomorrow. As I said, W is invited. I get the feeling after yesterday she won't come but we'll see. I'm taking the kids to a nice restaurant they've never been to that W also likes but hasn't been to in a while. One of my goals is to have a family activity each week with the intention of just providing some full family time for the kids and no mention of R to W if she.comes, just day to day stuff. Before I imploded yesterday we were having the most normal conversation we'd had. Maybe thinking of it, maybe it was backlash to that what happened in our conversation in the car with her being ratty and then my subsequent meltdown. All in the past now. Like you're all saying, mistakes are inevitable but I can't keep making the same one over Nd over.
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BD - 30TH JAN 2015 S - 30TH JAN 2015 PA CONFIRMED - 16TH FEB 2015 (SINCE AT LEAST OCT 2014) CONTINUAL TALK OF D ME: 31 W: 28 T: 10yrs M: 4.5yrs D:5, S:6
I think yesterday was the biggest day since A was exposed really as it was the next step coming along. I dealt with it really badly but it did show me that I CANNOT allow that to happen again. W will be moving, house will be sold, but I still have plenty of time to work on things.