Part 16 - edz, just edz

[edz]

Had one of those people trying to help moments that leaves you befuddled, mate of mine asking had I been dating (why are people so interested in if Im dating - Im not that interesting!) said no im just getting on with things right now.

Eventually subject was dropped but left me seriously discombobulated. I know why though Im looking for certainties and there arent any here right now. W may or may not be moving toward being more interested in maybe reconciling and she may well entirely possibly not be.

A dead cert this aint.

And thats whats bothering my subconcious and gets stirred up with these kind of conversations. Yes I could date, may meet someone terrific, may not, may find no ones interested or may meet someone im with for 40 years more BUT it wont be wife or my family as it could be. Still love her, still want her back and my family as it can be.

Not something you can get over in a quick conversation though!

Anyway just journalling...