Alpha and WAW - part 2

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W insists A is over now. She says she not speaking to OM anymore. Claims he is a 'player' and has moved on. She said he used her and she used him. She says she did it cos she was so unhappy with me. Ironically this morning at the assembly was going well, she chatted to me a little about her new rented place, talked about ordering things, even smiled in my general direction as the kids took turns to speak in the assembly.

Then it went wrong. I said we have beautiful children once back in the car. She said yeah, and that's a that matters now. That prompted a conversation about R and I got upset, from which I never recovered composure. I must have done everything that is wrong, pleading, crying, the works...saying I love you etc. Her F was very good with me and quite concerned. He said he'd been trying to speak to W but she is incredibly stubborn.

I know I've set things back enormously today. I have to regroup though because there were small signs this morning of things being a little better, talking about things she had held private recently. What an idiot I am. Undoubtedly the house is getting sold. If I'd been strong enough finger through it without crying it would have made a big difference. Not doing so has had a negative impact. Ive started reading DR again this afternoon. Coaching session in 2 hours. Oh God do I need some coaching now.

W did pull herself back from saying never, instead saying she won't go back.to hoe things were. I'm too impatient. We are going to have to go through house sake to come out the other side.

I need to be stronger. I need to be there without getting upset.

Wife jumped up when I mentioned dentist. She obviously hadn't noticed to.that point. Baby steps, watch,watch,watch.