Alpha, I'm so sorry. It is done now, and you should forgive yourself for loving your W and being distressed. We all have backslides. The thing to do is learn from them and move forwards.

The reality is your W is disinterested in you and your M right now. Who knows what may happen going forwards? But there are many apects of your future you can control and these are the ones to work on.

There will be plenty of opportunities to show your W that you are moving forwards with your own life...and she may become interested enough to turn back towards it. You know how these sitches go, and there is usually a predictable trajectory for the A. It just takes time and patience...

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus