You sound more positive already. But you HAVE to stop pursuing W. Read DR again or get some advice from the vets or a coach. Stop asking her out, stop sending texts etc ..please!!' It won't do any good. Try to think what W thinks when you do those things from her point of view. There are many other things you can do. But for now, in the state of mind you are still in, I would keep contact to W at a minimum. You are doing too many mistakes still. Build some more DB knowledge!
Me 32 (German) Wife 28 T 3yrs M 2yrs Moved to US for W No kids BD 6/2014 In house separation Confirmed EA 1/2015 (ongoing since BD) OM not ready Real D talk started 1/27/15