Alpha and WAW - part 2

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Sorry to hear alpha. Breath and focus, think about your kids. Allow yourself some slack, cry etc. but then tell youself it's enough, I have to take care of myself.
And most importantly don't get caught in what went wrong and all the ifs. Focus on the now and on yourself and your children.
You will get there!!! Try to distract yourself, read a lot. Buy some books, post a lot here. Force yourself to GAL.
I wish you all the best. I really feel for you. But I know you can do this!