I don't want to think about leaving. I know I should not see one if us as 'better' - how destructive.
Panicking. H admitted tonight he feared he may be mentally ill. We'd just come back from a MC session, things have been well enough. Topic was varied but in part about him learning to trust me to open up. Tonight he said many things about just wanting to be happy. I responded in empathy...and we got there.
Feeling stuck and fearful. Fearful there is something inside him that wants to be this way. He enjoyed all the attention he got after the accident, like thrived on it. I know he is struggling.
I suppose next you all will tell me there is no point in worrying about his choices and attitudes, I can't control any of it?
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
