OK, but what if H *really is* smart, sexy, kind, funny, and tried to love me as best as he could but I screwed it up?

Yes.....I know that isn't entirely true. But I'm still there in my head sometimes. Sexy H on a pedestal, RPP can't live up to the standard.

When am I going to get past this?


"Don't look back, you aren't going that way"