No M I haven't asked him anything along those lines. Not that I haven't thought about it but it does not fit in with DBing....pursuit, initiating R talks. Also, I am not ready to give up yet and I feel if I do put it out there I will get the reaffirmation that he wants a D. So there's that....
I have found myself getting too wrapped up in what he is doing the past few days. This past weekend D13 had another out of town tournament. I had made a hotel reservation but she got injured and couldn't play. I was way to concerned with "WHY" he was pushing for us to still go. Was it really because he felt she needed to "support her team" or was there an ulterior motive? I get upset with myself for spending too much time wrapped up in him....grr! At any rate, we did go and support the team Saturday but did not spend the night.
Again last night, I find myself all twisted because he was texting....2 texts is all I saw and I of course jump to conclusions because he "turned" away to text and I "assumed" he was "hiding" who he was texting.
So....still struggling with the detaching and the only thing it does is make me unhappy and stressed.
Something I'm really struggling with right now is my weight. I was at the DR today and as I've suspected due to the fit of my clothes I have gained weight. I'm really struggling with him (or anyone) ever finding me attractive again if this continues. My blood work is good so stress levels, thyroid and everything are normal. With that being said, I think it's time to quit talking and DO MORE. I think I will make that my #1 goal right now so I can start to feel better about my physical self.
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
