Very very tough Please know that just because your H is doing what he's doing it doesn't take away from Toots as a person. Toots can only control Toots Your H is making choices for himself and he will have to live by those choices. Accepting what is happening to us all is hard but we must accept what is and do what's best for us.

Your snooping showed where H is. Not exactly paradise is it. He has broken a family , left a W that a lot of men would kill for and for what ? He's not happy, he's at best an OM but that is what he decided. who knows what's going to happen but for now Toots needs to carry on being the best Toots she can be. Make choices for Toots that will make Toots happy and carry on being the great Toots that we know

It seems a few of my friends on here are struggling today and I wish I had saage words to lift your moods but at least know I'm thinking of you.

Take care, big hug and x. , Rd