Sounds like you are in a better place Mozza. All you can do is keep moving forward one baby step at a time. Life has a way of moving forward whether we Want it to or not. Believe that there could be something wonderful awaiting you in your future.
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.