To Pursue or Not

[Arcola]

Sat. W invited me to go to a nearby city with her and kids on Sun. I accepted. We took the kids to the zoo, mall, and out to eat. All interactions between W and I were well, and not much was said by either of us of importance.

I got a hold of W's phone after we finished eating because she ran back inside to tell the manager how nice our waiter was. During this time I got into her phone. I saw that she has been or was talking to some guy and somehow sex was a subject. I was in such a panic to read what I could before W came back that I don't know if she or he said they had sex. I do recall her saying she enjoyed talking to him and expressing how she felt, but that she felt vulnerable and she doesn't want people thinking she is too nice.

On our drive back home we spoke shortly about the waiter and previous times eating at this restaurant as well as other people and how they act towards customer service when they/we eat out. After that W said she enjoyed our time together and I said the same. The remainder of the drive home I had my headphones on and nothing was said and I also didn't touch her once on this outing.

I'm feeling kind of low after coming across those texts. I don't even know who this guy is. Well tomorrow is work so that will have my mind elsewhere. I think I'm going to schedule a phone counseling since its been 2 or 3 months since my first of 3 sessions.