The awakening of me Part 3

[mleigh4]

Had a nice weekend and got SO much done. I just can't seem to stop moving, cleaning and rearranging things in the house. I moved some of H's shirts in the closet to make more room for my shoes. I put some pictures out of my family, some great shots of my grandparents in Sicily. They look straight up mafia I nailed a board back up on the wall that covered the ceiling fan wires. I hung our dart board back up from when the wall was painted. I emptied the hot tub to clean it and get it ready for spring and summer and cleaned up the back yard. I can't seem to sit still.

H came over about 2 to get son and take down the christmas lights on the house. I finally remembered to ask him, I couldn't bring myself to climb up on the roof otherwise I would have done it myself. I was telling him how I figured out how to drain the hot tub with the hose and he laughed and asked how I did it. So I explained. He just looked at me and asked if he could suggest a better way. I said, but I did it! I was so excited I ran in the house to tell S! It's not easy getting a hose to suck up water on its own! H said, next time just call me and ask, then went on to explain his way. At the time, I just listened, but now I am wishing I had said no thanks, I got it! I wonder, with his attitude, does it bother him that I am doing so much on my own in the house? He must be noticing things changed, furniture moved, projects finished.....and I am figuring it out and doing it on my own. It feels great!

H said he has his company party next Saturday. He said he wasn't planning on going, but they want him to hand out some awards. I told him that's fine, I will take S, but that I have a party the following weekend that I want to go to. He said ok, then asked if it's my friends 50 birthday party? I told him yes. He said ok, but I was invited too. H is friends with her husband. So I said, are you going? I am sure I sounded surprised. These are friends we always did stuff with and who he dropped at BD. He said he was thinking of it. So I said ok, maybe your mom can watch S? So, wow, I may be at a party with H there. That should be interesting....

The house is so empty without S. I finished watching a movie, Silver Lining Playbook, was good. Now I think I will start the fun of TurboTax! I am forcing myself to sit still and enjoy the down time and quiet. But sometimes, it's almost too quiet