Masterpiece still in progress...

[Jer2911]

I think I need to start a new thread -- life just went to the twilight zone...

Just had two long and surreal conversations with W about her R with OW this afternoon and this evening... we are in such a weird place right now... I just did a lot of listening... and surprisingly felt no anger or bitterness and just a lot of peace about the entire situation...

We even laughed about her trip out of the country to visit OW...

We really had some very open and honest conversation about a lot of things -- beyond OW -- and I think we may be entering a new phase going forward... I guess what I feel right now, if things continue down this path, is that we are setting a strong foundation for any of the possible outcomes... If I don't get the miracle that I hope and pray for, then today was a very good beginning to being really good friends and co-parents... If I get the miracle I am hoping and praying for, today was a great "paving the way" foundation for us...

And for the first time -- at least right at the moment -- I feel really okay with any possible outcome...

And I can't explain why I feel that way because I certainly didn't feel that way yesterday or this morning.

I know I could feel completely differently tomorrow... But is this what it feels like to really be detaching? To feel as if I can really be okay with whatever happens? To be able to look at my W, listen to her talk about OW, and not feel the hurt and anger that I have felt in the recent past about all of this? To look at her, listen to all of that, and simply feel in that moment as if I were just listening to one of my friends talk about it?

God really must be working VERY hard on our situation for me to be where I am right at the moment...