She is just moving so quickly, with being an individual. I am positive she is not cheating everything checks out. It is just this one friend that she made two weeks after saying that we are going to separate in July. They just hangout all the time doing girl things but she doesn't tell me these things until I find out and ask.
We had a small argument last night, that I thought was over then. But when I went to drop off my D14 today she laid into me. I then said all kinds of stupid stuff back. I even tried to kiss her when we were arguing, that may have been the dumbest thing I ever did. She still keeps texting me hours later flipping out about that.
When arguing she told me her mind was 100% made up that we were done back in July. Then later in the argument she said her mind wasn't made up until November when I told she can do whatever she wants but I am moving into our dream house with her. Then lastly she said her mind was not made up totally until two weeks ago when one of our mutual friends tried to talk her into working on our marriage.
Now before I get blasted for everything I just wrote and said, I understand I need to work on myself. The problem is I don't know how. All of my friends are married so I would just be a third wheel. Secondly being married at 19, I have never been to a bar or anything like that and have no interest in going to one.
I have been going to the gym every morning and I am trying to get my real estate business going. But she has my mind and heart.
Every time I take a step back trying to Detach, she takes a step back. I know there is not secret answer I can do to make things right. I do get a little angry at her because I feel she let me feel all of this quilt for the last 8 months, but it is really just her wanting to live her teenage years that she was never able to live. My D14 acts more mature than her.
Me: 36 W: 36 D: 14 T: 18 (05/1997) M: 16 (05/1999) BD: 7/23/15 Separation 01/2015 D mentioned and started 02/2015 D filed 3/2015 OM confirmed 3/30/15