May your

[Vanilla]

You didn't make curfew?

I am very very shocked indeed.

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[Ggrass]

I'm a grown adult nilla! Who prolly should know bettera, but what the hell.

Great day out today need to rattle the bushes to see what a happening for a dinner date.
Had one huge wobble at event one of h cars was there. It could however have been sold. But a little panic attack and anxiety kicked in.

The antidote was to think about Friday and x!

[Vanilla]

Gg

glad H was not there! I suppose you will run into H one day?

If it makes you anxious what will you do?

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[Ggrass]

Well I have faced him before, but they were planned things mediation, funeral.

The accidental meeting will depend on circumstances. I think ignore and walk will do.
Toying with introducing me self to ow in a snarky way, but that's only a in my head moment.

I think the whole attitude h mother took of pretending I never met them works well, tbh.
It didn't last long th anxiety either.

Had a good time at the pub. F61 she and I laughed till we cryed. It was awesome like being 18yo, she was with her new bf all, weekend.

I got a text from x saying have fun, as I invited him and he could not come. Omg h would never do that, he was paranoid at times. Either nothing or abuse after. Swoon.

[Vanilla]

I am glad about this Gg.

Two days without H, peaceful and I am sooooo glad. Watched Liam, read, went dancing and ate what I wanted. Worked exercised and felt free, really truly free as a bird. Singing, dancing and sleeping. Posted and enjoyed myself without being emotionally battered.

relief from boundary enforcement which is tiring.

And listen to many TED talks.

Gg, such release from tension and drama.

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[Ggrass]

It's is right?
I so know where your coming from nilla, ts very tough road.

Wel x is still being cute, so life is good. However I wobbled and sort of had a r talk with him.

It's was along the lines of keeping private stuff private so not really a r talk. I just don't want s17 to hear along the grape vine about his mum dating, that's not nice.

It ws all good, tbh he seems to understand that stuff and unlike h is like ok you need x that's ok.

H was like nope, why, can't be bothered and a Million other excuses.

[Vanilla]

You said on my thread that you were worried H was coming back as things had not worked out with OW.

Can you explain a little Gg?

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[edz]

Just wanted to say hi gg been a bit caught up in my whirlwind this last week. Sounds like things are looking pretty good right now, I'm exceptionally happy for you sending positive vibes that it continues the way you want. Sounds like 'x' (how mysterious is he one of the x men!? ) respects your boundaries so far and will put in the effort to make you happy long may that continue

[Ggrass]

Looks like x, gunna have to thinks some thing better I guess than that, is have a case of the wobbles.

Hates job, hates this hates that blah blah, mmmmm looking emtionally driven.
Sigh, Random guess is words of affirmation ll? Perhaps?
Just bit of text conversations back and forth.

His r came to planned end just before Christmas, she left he knew she was going so I'm thinking he's a bit up and down due to needing to deal with some stuff.

Not gunna marry the dude. Casual flirty fun and bit of naughty all good!
Wanders of whistling casual like

He has said no catching up till weekend. it's been a long time drought, it's hard to apply a hand brake. Got work with him Friday, omg that won't be easy to keep stuff hidden to a degree.

S17 hates me again, no text replies from him, but then I did ask him to fill one thing he promised so I wasn't suprised on that score.

[Vanilla]

Gg

Thank you for your help and support over the last few days. I could be in a poor position now and thanks because I am stronger.

It helps to share about abuse, it makes it more open.

V