Hi Errod, don't despair. The main thing is to learn and adapt. Take on board the messages we are getting. We all make mistakes and flap around in the deep end for a while. My BD1 was in March'14 and I didn't even discover this site until October - months of doing the wrong things and trying to 'love' my H back into the M.

You're doing just fine my friend....

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus