Don't beat yourself up too badly. You are still having to process a lot under stressful conditions.

Have you thought about keeping a journal to track your progress or when/what something doesn't work?

I may seem to come at you full speed, and I guess I am really. I have such a desire to pass along the help that was given me at one time. I have not forgotten that terrible feeling of hopelessness. If I saw no hope for your M, I would probably tell you.

I know you feel discouraged today, but tomorrow you can start afresh with a new determination. Yes?

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!