Dave, Could you explain again to me what the basis of your anger is? I am not following what has made you so angry. Was it because you had an agreement to ML twice a week and she has not kept her end of the bargain? (I thought she had kept that but I may have missed something.)
I think that your anger is getting the best of you. You are pissed off at her and it is coming off as being quite unfair to me. She is making an effort to change--it won't be overnight and dramatic; it will be slow and steady. THAT is the basis of true change anyway. Anything else will be a short lived bomb that will fizzle out and go away.
Trust me..she picks up on your seething-just-below-the-surface whether she admits it or not. I have never had to make love to a person who was feeling like that but I would think that it wouldn't be very pleasant.
Anyway, I just wanted to see if you could clearly articulate what has you so upset with her. I find that sometimes I have this intense anger at my situation (me HD, him LD) and have to really examine what is bothering me.
Also, this might be totally off base but I get the feeling that you WANT her to fail. The sooner the better. That way, you can move on with what is "inevitable" in your mind. Is this true?
