Alpha and WAW - part 2

[alpha99]

I've just got back from golf. Had a great time, although my golf game.is awful. Thought about my sitch a few times whilst out but mostly just focused on having a good time. I do miss my W and kids terribly. At some moments it takes all I have to stop myself from calling and just saying I love you, can't we work this out? I know that's not the best thing to do so I don't, but I am finding some moments extremely hard to deal with.

For those people who have gone dark or have experience of this board, is there any sort of rough average before S begins to initiate contact. I know each situation is different but I was just wondering in general. I miss ny W and kids so much. I have been GAL etc but I still feel the pain of my situation. I know I maybe wants things to happen quicker than they will...I have my coaching session Tuesday...I hope Amanada can help give me some more personalised goals and assignments. Knowing W has rented somewhere else, or on the verge of, is depressing...Im tired and lonely right now...this is so hard.

Going to go right through DR over the next day or two. I want to interactions W without getting things wrong.

I cried alone to myself a few times this morning before I went out. Typing this is.making me well up now.