Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

[susana4]

Ok, I need to get a grip on myself and get my head back in the game (is it wrong I sort of see my M as a game now to be played?).

H is back tomorrow and I think Tuesday we are going on a not-date date dinner out.

I need to get a grip on the anger and resentment and hopelessness because I'm sure that would seep into my interactions with H so it's one thing to feel it now while he's away but I need to be vigilant not to let it seep. Still haven't seemed to figure out a way to process the anger healthily.

I don't really feel sure right now about whether I'd want to R if given the opportunity, but I also know not to close the door just yet. I remember reading through Train's old threads early on in her sitch she talked about not being sure if she wanted her H back but DBing just in case.

So, I think I will carry on. Back in the game.