I am wondering what role hope and faith play in DBing. I have thought about this before. At first I thought we needed to have no hope but I think I was confusing it with expectations. Clearly we need to let go of expectations, but hope and faith brings us here and keeps us going, I think.
I think part of what I've been struggling with the last few days is lack of hope/faith. This morning I tried to imagine my future life without H and I had a few alternative pictures, a bit fuzzy still but there. Then, I tried to imagine a future life with H and I couldn't. I can't imagine a future with him any more.
Still feeling a strong urge to run away while he's gone, and never see him again.
Me 28 / H 28 M 1 / T 2.5 BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more" Still living together, separate rooms.
