I thought being honest was a good thing. I put myself out there with the expectation of being rewarded for doing the honest and right things. I wear my emotions on my sleeve.
So, now I refocus my efforts towards me....again....with no expectations. It feels like I am in some sort of cosmic chess match with the eternally creepy Bobby Fischer.
How to refocus on being a better me?
Here are my strengths:
1. Loyal 2. Good Planner 3. Good Career due to my planing into the future 4. Good with Money 5. Good Provider 6. Leads with logic instead of emotion
What my weaknesses are:
1. Loyal to a fault 2. Does not live in the moment - working on it 3. Future Plans - again not living in the moment more 4. Miserly with money 5. Good provider but to only family and friends - reach out more 6. Leads with logic - more emotion could be a welcome change 7. Rigid 8. Cant get outside of my own head 9. Tends to be negative and pessimistic 10. Does not set healthy boundaries - lets people walk on me 11. Feeling like I don't belong or don't deserve happiness, that I am flawed and if people really knew me, they would not like me.
The challenges that I am answering are:
1. Working out every day I don't have my kids 2. Living more in the moment 3. Try to not let jealousy consume me 4. Doing things that are fun for me - playing music 5. Trying to get outside of myself - to connect - to be more open and accessible 6. Trying to be more positive 7. Strive to be authentic in all interactions and with myself
