Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

[susana4]

Sorry to hear Susanna you are still rollercoastering. You did sound very depressed today. At least it got better. You know where there are valleys there are hills too. Hang in there!
Your medication doesn't seem to work to well either. What did they put you on?
Since I take mine I did not cry a single tear. It feels like I can not cry. Just can't.
I don't have much time to read much more what happened but I tell you you are more mature than him, depression or not. I said it before but 28 for a guy is fairly young. I can only speak for myself but I was in a different place 5 years ago maturity wise.
I hope he will have some energy to figure his stuff out. I don't see how you can help him with that right now.
Sandi always told me: You can't teach WAS a lesson. Life has to!

Don't let yourself down. You have choices in your life, and in my experience time usually reveals what is the right thing to do. Don't overthink things. Focus on yourself (you heard that 100 times already, I know, so did I).
If you feel down get it out, cry but then tell youself: now I cried enough, time to think of sth positive. Don't he too hard on yourself. Learn to love yourself again.

Thanks Complex. I think the meds are working - yesterday and today excepted, i have been in a much better place, and if my scores show (I have to do some questionnaires before each IC session which rate my mood and anxiety levels) I have improved since starting the meds. I don't know if they're fully kicked in though, I will discuss today in my next IC. They definitely haven't stopped me crying completely though. That sounds like it's not right, yours stopped you feeling like you can cry? Seems a bit too much?
I've got sertraline (think that's Zoloft).

I don't think there have been any major developments since you last checked in. None of this seems to have been brought on in any way by anything external in my sitch, if anything my sitch seems to have been developing somewhat positively, this has just led me to question things and whether I would want to R or not, whether I want to continue on this path or whether i just want to run away. So it all kind of boils down to stuff going on in my head. Guess this goes to show how we have control over how we feel.