Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

[susana4]

Hi Susana

Sounds as though your day improved anyway....

Interesting on the reading there, and useful to look at things in a more compassionate way. I think it you feel really angry, it's pretty hard for that not to become evident to your S in some way. If you can genuinely get to a place of feeling some compassion, it's so much better - for you if nothing else!

I found reading stuff about MLC useful for kindness. The descriptions of the MLC stages on the Hearts blessings website were useful for me. and I certainly feel there is an element of MLC in our sitch.

The other thing to remember is - whatever is causing your sitch - your H isn't in a good place atm. Being a WAS is not a great place to be. We hear that from WAS's kind enough to post honestly about their experiences on the forum. Like Sandi...

Thanks T. Yes, my day got better once I finally managed to force myself to stop crying (I know that sounds ridiculous, it should be an easy choice). I did a little shopping and enjoyed my dinner and a movie.

I'll check out the MLC site you mentioned. I know you mentioned some of the MLC stuff before, and it does seem in some ways like my H is going through an MLC type thing, he seems way too young but he certainly has the FOO issues.

Yes, I don't want the hatred or anger to bleed over and I'm sure it would become obvious if he were here. He is extremely perceptive of/over sensitive to my moods (think it goes back to his FOO issues). I'm glad he's away while I'm going through this and hope that I'll be more stable before he gets back from his trip. He does seem to time his ski trips impeccably - last time while he was away I started on antidepressants (and didn't do well the first few days) and this time I'm all over the map again! Somehow I managed to be pretty stable between the trips. Maybe I just subconsciously time my breakdowns for when he's away and I know I can cry freely?

PSA for ladies in the UK: no need to buy anything overly fancy, Superdrug own brand (B range) waterproof mascara has proven perfectly good over the course of my sitch!