Note to All, Having a Apple PowerBook and a wireless network in the house is great. These machines can sleep instantly, then wake up completely, back on the network by the time you flip the lid back up. There's absolutely no hesitation between getting a thought down or researching an interest when your laptop is as convenient as a magazine. (yes, it goes in the bathroom with me). Ok, I can't guarantee that I wont plug these machines again sometime, but I see why Macs have such a cult following...they really are like owning an expensive BMW because of the "tight fit and finish" inside and out.
So, I'm struggling to cheer myself up. I did some work today that was lingering and it felt good to complete. I think a lot of my stress is being compounded with other things in my life included another freakin' trip to DC and Philly all next week only to come home to a wife whose out of town. I told W that I was stressin' about the fact that I wouldn't see her for so long. Her reply was "just think of the bright side...you like anticipation". Very funny. She was just trying to be funny but this is the second time she's made a joke about something that was talked about in seriousness. I just told her I liked anticipation a few hours before...not 7 days and let the joke roll. Boy, journaling is tough. It makes you "replay" things and you end up seeing that some things you used to laugh about actually sting.
I assume that either tonight or tomorrow night before my trip, we'll get some LM in. I really need to cheer up and let this "down" thing pass. I'm finding myself being a little bitchy with W.
This might work....Enforce the schedule but progressively become more "bitchy" right up to the point we do it, then really act chilled out and like a great H for a few days. It's positive reinforcement, but I'm certain my desirability would be pretty low if I got bitchy. Scratch that idea. Actually wait....
How do we create some excessively "positive" reinforcements for ML? Gifts would seem overt and tacky. There's not much more to work with with W. Hmmm. Maybe positive reinforcement for her is that she does have to do it the next day. sigh. Actually, my general demeanor has probably hurt our sex life. Being cheerful all the time doesn't give you the opportunity to be "really cheerful". Someting to think about.
