Post retreat situation

[Marylov]

Thanks! I don't know if I am in a healthy place of detachment or if I am in an unhealthy place of denial. I know what is happening, but I do think sometimes I prefer to forget about what is going on. I can feel myself pretending that it isn't. Especially since we have chosen to keep it fairly confidential, only telling our immediate family and a few friends. I guess there isn't much else for me to do. I can say I am prepared to accept us divorcing until I am blue in the face, but there is no way I will actually be able to fully accept it until after it is DONE. Until those papers are signed, I don't think I'll be able to fully let go. But I am as far down that road as I can be, given our situation (he hasn't filed, he seems to be lost/confused).