Devotion To A Dream

[phunguy]

Today just proves I don't know a thing. She nice all day, I'm nice. I ask her if I can tell her something she says sure, I say I'm really hurt and disappointed that she's not going with us tonight. She says she sorry and things are difficult. I go for a run come home and shower.

As I'm getting out of the shower she's there. She says you know I had a nice time last night and I know you're unhappy with me about tonight, but you look really good right now. She's looking at me and I can see it in her eyes, I am no good at saying no to her. She moves closer to me and says this changes nothing as she's fighting her emotions in my arms and I wisper to her she's a woman she can't have sex without feelings and I know she loves me even if she's talked herself into being mad at me for now. I know she needs time to figure everything out for herslef and what's a few weeks out of 20 years? She giggles, says you're right, I miss you. She grabs me, smiling and we make love. Jesus I know this was a mistake some how. But it doesn't feel like one, it was love like we use to make before things got bad.

She showers gets ready to go get her nails done and meet up with her girls there. Before she's about to leave she comes to me hugs me kisses me on the lips passionately for the first time in almost 2 months( probably longer) tells me she loves me and says she'll be home later don't worry, have fun with the kids and your parents. My head is spinning and here I am again, I don't know shhhhhht. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!