KGirl - letting the past go

[KGirl]

Well, the guy who rejected my fb request.. showed up in our mutual friend's photos, making out w/ some girl at a bar. I don't know that I'm particularly interested in a guy in his 30's who makes out w/ girls in bars, so I think that's effectively killed my interest in him.

The more I think about it the more I think I'm nowhere near ready to try and meet people online or that I don't already know through some other avenue. Meeting people through existing social circles or that I already know through other people seems safer right now. The idea of dating (and sex! mostly that part) is terrifying enough without having to figure it out with someone I've never met. All this makes me mad at my STBX, too, because if not for him I wouldn't have to be worrying about any of this. I was totally content to have been with just one person and not worry about re-learning all of that or rediscovering someone else.. but since HE is not, now I have to be forced into it, too. Even if the familiar/comfortable wasn't so great, at least it was familiar/comfortable.