Old dog seeks new trick 10

[Old Dog]

Thanks again for trying to help he out.

I don't really know what boundaries to set. I can try the no name or anything to do with him in the house one but then I'm struggling. For example I don't know if she's with him this weekend as she hasn't said. All she has said is that she'll be back an hour after I've gone.

I can't say don't see him as she'll just repeat her it's over mantras. As far as she is concerned she has ended it, has moved on and started another R, and now it's up to me to get over it.

This has been a really bad day for me. Every 20-30 mins I think about them together and think if the expIicit sexual references in the valentines card: bitey, wanton and more. And every time it dies my head in and it takes all my effort to stop thinking or crying. I didn't manage it every time: far from it.

It's my mums birthday next week and a bunch of family members and my boys went out to celebrate. All I could think of was she should be here not with him. I did it enjoy it. I feel so low today. Even when we went to see a film in the evening was a failure as it was a 15 and I forgot S12 isn't allowed.

I feel a little calmer now ... But old dog tired. I must only have got 3 hours sleep last night. I've been yawning all day.

And ... I feel like such a misery guts and it's horrible.