Post retreat situation

[Marylov]

Went well, we actually hung out a bit after our D went to sleep. We even enjoyed each other's company. I was very calm, but he got pretty emotional at the end. Told me how he is really struggling and hurting. I tried to be as supportive as I could. I really do hate seeing him hurting, and I wish that this time apart was giving him even a little peace. But it seems to be making him even worse. I guess I might be detaching better than I thought, because when he left, I didn't really feel sad. I am okay now being alone, and have gotten used to my new normal. It is not what I want. But it is where I am at.