Part 16 - edz, just edz

[edz]

So been a reasonably good day with s, weather wasnt up to much despite the promised spring weekend - was warmer but mostly grey.

We mixed some video games, going to the park, having an ice cream (well s did - black coffee for me) throwing about the baseball visiting the shops for salad and some odds and ends and now he's in the bath.

For various reasons I wont go into I know "thing" is alive and well still - still no one else involved I know about but it certainly explains why a chat or anything further hasnt materialised. Something w definitely needs to work through before she'll speak to me but I imagine that will be coming soon enough and I dont imagine we'll be coming out from it together if its what I think.

I'll hope my assumptions are wrong because if they arent she's been fairly seriously misleading me on her intentions for a while now. Before anyone says she left you in July, I know and I was ready to move on in January she then started to talk about not ruling out things.

Anyway not the evening for it, s being here is keeping me happy but sitch looks as bleak as it has in a while. I would really love some honesty and openness from w right now, guess I'll just keep waiting since I dont want to say ok we're done.

Anyway off to check on s and I have some avenues for GAL to investigate, need to find something that will keep me coming back dont mind if thats a stretch from my comfort zone as long as its realistic, canal cleaning (much as Im sure is a worthy and fantastic endeavour for outdoors types is not going to work for me, sadly nerve damage and pins in my leg mean dancing isnt a likely route either, may try yoga though).

Anyway said I'd be posting less not more. I imagine - unless w draws holding this conversation she told me she desperately wants to have - I may have some serious updates to post soon enough.

Hope you guys are all well



Edz