Seperated -she is with someone, I'm desperate (3)

[vdubber]

Thank you Mahhhty.

Just journaling a bit here. Last night after work met coworkers for drinks. Was nice to chat with some people I hadn't seen in a while and met another couple who were friends of coworkers so that was nice too. Woke up this morning and took S18 to get a coffee and breakfast so that was nice. Back home now as still tired from the busy week. Hope to meet up with a coworker for dinner tonight who is still in town this week as he and I get along well.

I still feel good about the mtg with W on Thursday and will not contact her this wknd but part of me hopes she wants to meet again next week so I can try the same approach. I guess what I really would like is some indication that she is intrigued and reaching out, whether or not we meet is not as important. Again this is the impatient part of me. Next week should be easier as I will have the little ones again. I have to say that usually the weeks I don't have the kids are very hard for me and I get sad probably from having too much time to think but this week I had people in town for work mtgs and was out every night....I'm exhausted. So it's been my best GAL week so far in terms of staying busy.

Monday is my bday. I have kids that night and although it means nothing to me I may get a little cake just so the kids can watch me blow out the candles and then they can eat the cake. W will most certainly text me but I hope she does not ask to stop by as I don't care to see her on my bday. It's my day and she has no business trying to take part in it as that would be both figuratively and literally "cake eating" :-) I know this probably sounds harsh but things are not ok and i do not want to pretend they are, especially on my bday. Wish I was out of town as I honestly am not even up to dealing with it. And I see my IC on my bday too so at least I should be in a good frame of mind that evening.

Well time for a nap and then want to run downtown for some Indian food which I wanted to do a couple weeks ago but didn't end up going. Need to get out after a short (or long) nap.

Thanks for reading my ramblings...