I am bit worried about this evening. We are taking my S8 to a psychiatrist due to his uncontrollable outbursts/anger at school and home. The Psychologist told me in IC this past week that it's environmental(and as soon as she is gone I will see changes), now that she has the full picture of what is going on but it's best to be sure from a medical stand point. It's not that I'm not worried about my son, I'm more worried about her and what she asked to happen after this appointment.
She said last night that she wanted the 3 of us to go out for dinner and maybe do some shopping after the appointment. I thought it was highly odd, but agreed. I cannot lie the thought of a nice dinner with my family seems really pleasant and enjoyable. But good lord, I know she's up to something. What does she got going on in her mind? I am trying to prepare myself for whatever may come, have no expectations and be in a good place with PMA! Easier typed than done my friend!
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Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
Tonight was almost like normal??? Nice conversation over dinner, good food. It was a bit hard to fight some of the feelings I started to have. Sitting across from her looking into her eyes... We talked and talked work stuff mainly from her, with her position change she's under a lot of stress. It was nice to not talk about R or D for a change. Why does she have to be so beautiful? Dammit I'm a softy.
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
Tonight taking my D to ChuckECheese for her birthday and the W is going out with the girls to get drunk, yeah right!!!! I cannot believe her. I am going to have to work hard to let this one go I'm so angry with her! So much for the almost normal dinner last night.
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
Why does she have to be so beautiful? Dammit I'm a softy.
I thought that's how we females caught you guys. . (jk)
All I can tell you is whenever there are those moments of almost normal/pleasant interactions with her, is know it will not last. It is no "sign" that she's having second thoughts, etc.
She has the same beautiful body but her mindset has done a 180 from the person she used to be. Hopefully someday she will make the complete circle.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
It's more and more appearant she is no longer the person she use to be. Choosing to be with her single/divorced girls(don't believe it) over her family and particularly her daughter for her birthday??? Who is this woman??
It's very painful for me today to watch her make this choice, saying we can have cake on Monday her actual birthday. I'm just shocked, completely shocked and hurt by her decisions.
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
Today just proves I don't know a thing. She nice all day, I'm nice. I ask her if I can tell her something she says sure, I say I'm really hurt and disappointed that she's not going with us tonight. She says she sorry and things are difficult. I go for a run come home and shower.
As I'm getting out of the shower she's there. She says you know I had a nice time last night and I know you're unhappy with me about tonight, but you look really good right now. She's looking at me and I can see it in her eyes, I am no good at saying no to her. She moves closer to me and says this changes nothing as she's fighting her emotions in my arms and I wisper to her she's a woman she can't have sex without feelings and I know she loves me even if she's talked herself into being mad at me for now. I know she needs time to figure everything out for herslef and what's a few weeks out of 20 years? She giggles, says you're right, I miss you. She grabs me, smiling and we make love. Jesus I know this was a mistake some how. But it doesn't feel like one, it was love like we use to make before things got bad.
She showers gets ready to go get her nails done and meet up with her girls there. Before she's about to leave she comes to me hugs me kisses me on the lips passionately for the first time in almost 2 months( probably longer) tells me she loves me and says she'll be home later don't worry, have fun with the kids and your parents. My head is spinning and here I am again, I don't know shhhhhht. Ahhhhhhhh!!!!
Me 41 Wife 38 T20 M13 S8 D3 Bomb 1/26/15 A confirmed 2/19/15
Same thing happened with my WAW. The next day she tried killing herself. I found her phone and she had texted her friend "Great, now I have to start pushing him away all over again. He [blanking] thinks he's my savior." And more I can't remember.
Read Sandi's new thread and don't lie to yourself.
Me:38 XW:38 T:11 years M:8 years Kids: S14, D11, D7 BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15
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