Susana (7) - Like a big pizza pie

[susana4]

I just feel so weak and pathetic right now. Every time I try and force myself to stop crying and leave the house and enjoy the sunshine, I start crying again and can't stop. This is so pathetic. I feel like a failure as a DBer and a person. I don't even know what I'm crying about! I'm mourning something that's already gone, that I don't even know if I want (or maybe I'm mourning that I don't know if I want him any more?). My friend cancelled our plans but I still want to go out for a walk, and I was going to go shopping but I can't seem to stop crying and I feel weak even writing this.